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6 Fiction – “The Rocket Man” by Nathan Dixon
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Nathan Dixon graduated from the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill in 2008 with degrees in English Literature and Creative Writing. Since then he's spent time rock climbing and traveling through California, New Zealand, Europe, and South America. For a year he lived in Brooklyn selling waffles from the window of a big yellow truck. He now lives in Durham, NC, bartending and reading and writing.
10.29.2013 – trans lit mag begins transmitting issue #11, “intransigents.”
“The Rocket Man”
by Nathan Dixon
Back in March of ’86 there was a man on Ninth Street who called himself the Rocket Man. People said he was crazy – the adults did – but we liked to listen to him. Probably in his mid-30s, maybe his 40s, pacing around in a tin foil space suit with a fishbowl on his head, standing beside the rocket that he’d built out of cardboard boxes. There was a chalkboard on wheels that he rolled out to the sidewalk every morning, and on this chalkboard he’d work out complex math problems, scratching from left to right, from top to bottom, the indecipherable script trailing out in neat little symbols behind his hand. He talked to himself. None of us knew whether or not the numbers and letters added up. We were young.
More kids began to stop and listen during the second week. We brought friends. He’d stand there, even in the rain, shouting about the wonders of space. Then he’d clam up, draw into himself like a little hermit crab and whisper in a coded speech that we couldn’t really hear, let alone understand. Scratching away at his chalkboard, frowning as he worked along, waving his arms, pausing to put a hand to his chin. Until he came to the end when he’d turn with a smile to his confused observers. It was during the third week that he claimed he’d soon depart. That he’d soon blast off – taking to the skies to hitch a ride on Halley’s Comet – into the outer reaches of our solar system.
None of us knew where he went at night until Jack Chalmers and Lefty Larson followed him down the train trestles to the bridge over the river. Apparently he tied a rope around his middle when he left his spot on the street corner and totted the chalkboard and the cardboard rocket along the metal rails of the train tracks. They said he had a camp with a couple of tents and bunches of radios and electronic gadgets that beeped and buzzed in the night. Strange voices reaching through the static.
Tommy Powell said there was no way he could have electricity down there without wires running to it, but Jack and Lefty stuck to their story. They said there were telescopes, too, and more chalkboards, colored lights blinking in the dark, and big metal objects. They said the whole time the Rocket Man whispered to himself, busy with whatever it was he was planning.
The day came gray and wet. We’d all seen the Halley Comet, though none of us had been that impressed. I said I’d seen it, I’d looked to where my dad pointed in the sky, but I wasn’t really sure. Our science teacher told us it was still about 40 million miles from Earth. The same as driving around the planet 1,600 times.
But the Rocket Man didn’t seem deterred. He showed up to the corner wearing his aluminum foil suit and his fishbowl helmet. He told us he’d have to launch from the old ball field because it’d be too loud and dusty to do it on the street corner. We marched behind him, down Ninth Street and onto the dirt road that would lead us there. There were maybe 12 or 15 of us, and though we shouted questions at him and kicked up dirt and horsed around in the pale light of the afternoon, he kept right along in front, a man on a mission, whispering always to himself.
No one had used the ball field since summer and the weeds had grown taller than the smallest of us. In the middle of the outfield a circle of tall grass had been mowed, and in the middle of the circle was a rocket. A real one. Not the cardboard cutout he’d been setting up on the street.
This one was made of metal, though it still looked pieced together – made up of rusted quarter panels and sheets of copper and steel. It must have weighed a ton. We all took off running as soon as we caught sight of it, but we stopped in the tall grass on the fringe of the mown down circle. Curious, excited, skeptical.
The Rocket Man took his time, never changing his pace. He walked through the infield, into the outfield with a smile on his lips, his head in the fishbowl bobbing up above the grass. It began to drizzle, and it was strange how it smelled like summer with the cut grass in the ball field. The water dripped from the glass sphere on his head, and he told us that we’d have to back up. That we’d get burned if we didn’t.
We listened to him, all of us excited. Then something happened.
Lefty Larson stepped into the circle and said he wanted to go with him. We all knew he shouldn’t have done it, but we didn’t know how to stop him. Jack Chalmers said he wanted to go too.
We watched the three of them climb into the thing, listened as it began making all sorts of noises. We didn’t know what to do. A couple of kids ran back into the grass as the dust cloud came billowing out from underneath it. It was the loudest thing I’d ever heard.
I remember the rain on my face. I remember as it lifted off the ground. Up and up and up, fire blowing from underneath it. We couldn’t breathe. Kids coughed in the high grass. The dust was everywhere, everything was hot. But I watched the sky as the rocket roared into the clouds.
They never found them. Some of the kids told the police there’d been a beat up station wagon parked on the road. That it’d been gone when we headed home. But I never saw it. The adults said anything could’ve happened once that dust started blowing. That the Rocket Man could have crept away with our friends under his arms, but they weren’t there. They never found his camp under the railroad tracks, just some gizmos half buried in the mud.
A man was picked up two counties over a couple of weeks later, an astrophysicist who’d been fired from his university job under strange circumstances. They put him on trial, but it wasn’t him. I saw his picture in the paper. I think he went to jail, but I was never sure. They didn’t tell us kids that stuff, and my family moved away at the end of the school year.
It’s been more than two decades since that gray day in late March when Lefty and Jack disappeared with the Rocket Man. Halley’s Comet is due to pass again in 2061, a bright string of light in the night sky.
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